{"id":175,"date":"2015-06-04T22:39:28","date_gmt":"2015-06-04T20:39:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/suicidevoluntary.alekscuracsaric.me\/?p=175"},"modified":"2015-06-04T22:39:28","modified_gmt":"2015-06-04T20:39:28","slug":"njega-sve-mrze","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/2015\/06\/04\/njega-sve-mrze\/","title":{"rendered":"Njega sve mrze"},"content":{"rendered":"<body><p><\/p><div id=\"attachment_177\" style=\"width: 510px\" class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><a href=\"http:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/doctor.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-177\" class=\"size-full wp-image-177\" src=\"http:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/doctor.jpg\" alt=\"I'll be there for you.\" width=\"500\" height=\"495\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/doctor.jpg 500w, https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/doctor-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/doctor-300x297.jpg 300w, https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/doctor-100x100.jpg 100w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-177\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">I\u2019ll be there for you.<\/p><\/div>\n<p>Moram prekinuti sa njim. Moram biti jo\u0161 jedna koja \u0107e napuknuti to jedinstveno srce. Ve\u0107 je prekasno jer sam\u00a0najzaljubljenija ikad. Postala sam jedna od onih koja drugima pri\u010da kao da prva ikad sam osjetila ljubav. Odlazim od svakog razgovora misle\u0107i kako oni ne ku\u017ee.<\/p>\n<p>\u010cudno je isprva kada ti ka\u017ee da je on taj u vezama kojeg se ostavlja. Pomisli\u0161 da je u pitanju mra\u010dnost nekakva. Tajna ili mana koja svu sre\u0107u upije.<br>\nNo shvatila sam da upravo ono \u0161to upije sve je njegova najve\u0107a vrlina. On ne mo\u017ee stati. Uvijek mora kretati se naprijed, posti\u0107i vi\u0161e, bolje. Kao da lebdi, no uvijek se naprijed kre\u0107e. Ne vidi\u0161 kretnje, samo osjeti\u0161 da sve vi\u0161e i vi\u0161e osje\u0107a\u0161 da te vu\u010de. Sa smije\u0161kom, sa rije\u010dima koje samopouzdanje izgrade u fantasti\u010dne dvorce dok drugima ono \u017eivi u ku\u0107ama u redu.<\/p>\n<p>No to nisi ti. To je prekrasna vizija koju on ima o tome \u0161to ti mo\u017ee\u0161 biti. To je la\u017e.<\/p>\n<p>Nitko ne mo\u017ee sve. Nitko ne mo\u017ee, samo on. I to je la\u017e, ali ne mogu u nju vjerovati i osjetiti njega blizu sebe. Jedina utjeha mi je to \u0161to znam kada ga se slomi on osna\u017ei jo\u0161 vi\u0161e. Postane jo\u0161 privla\u010dniji, jo\u0161 br\u017ee se nau\u010di zavu\u0107i pod ko\u017eu.<\/p>\n<p>Ja ne znam pri\u010dati pri\u010de, uvijek se svedu no to da ih zavr\u0161im sa <em>trebao si biti tamo<\/em>. No jedina pri\u010da sa njime koju imam, kako god je ispri\u010dala i tko god ju slu\u0161ao, taj se nasmije. Kao da sama njegova prisutnost u pri\u010di joj daju tu mo\u0107 da izmami ljudima osmijeh na lice.<\/p>\n<p>Ka\u017ee da ga sve biv\u0161e mrze, ali kao da ne razumije \u0161to to zna\u010di. Ne mrzi\u0161 nekoga do koga ti nije stalo. Ne mrzi\u0161 nekoga od koga misli\u0161 da mo\u017ee\u0161 bolje. Mrzi\u0161 samo one za koje duboko u sebi zna\u0161 da nisi dovoljno dobra, a njega sve mrzimo.<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Moram prekinuti sa njim. Moram biti jo\u0161 jedna koja \u0107e napuknuti to jedinstveno srce. Ve\u0107 je prekasno jer sam\u00a0najzaljubljenija ikad. Postala sam jedna od onih koja drugima pri\u010da kao da prva ikad sam osjetila ljubav. Odlazim od svakog razgovora misle\u0107i kako oni ne ku\u017ee. \u010cudno je isprva kada ti ka\u017ee da je on taj u <a class=\"read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/2015\/06\/04\/njega-sve-mrze\/\">&hellip;&nbsp;<span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-175","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-7","category-girl"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/175","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=175"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/175\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=175"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=175"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=175"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}