{"id":49,"date":"2014-10-05T00:50:16","date_gmt":"2014-10-04T22:50:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/suicidevoluntary.alekscuracsaric.me\/?p=49"},"modified":"2014-10-05T00:50:16","modified_gmt":"2014-10-04T22:50:16","slug":"used-to-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/2014\/10\/05\/used-to-love\/","title":{"rendered":"Use(d) to love"},"content":{"rendered":"<body><p>Kada \u0161uti\u0161 ljudi uvijek pretpostave najgore. Ne progovori\u0161 li ni rije\u010di u nekakvoj ovisni\u010dkoj grupi gdje ostali dijele svoja najstra\u0161nija iskustva, a redovito svoj lik daje\u0161 im na promatranje, njihovi umovi ne\u0107e \u010dekati ve\u0107 poput smionih grabe\u017eivaca \u0107e u svega nekoliko trenutaka prisjetiti se svojih lo\u0161ih i onih nekoliko ra\u0161trkanih dobrih odluka i pretpostaviti da je svaka tvoja bila ova prva \u2013 lo\u0161a.<\/p>\n<p>Istina, po\u017eelio sam si prerezati \u017eile, samo izgubio sam no\u017e. Nastavio sam sjediti, nisam ga i\u0161ao potra\u017eiti. I tada me upitala da li \u017eelim jo\u0161 \u0161to na \u0161to sam odgovorio da o\u0161tar no\u017e moje vene pri\u017eeljkuju.<br>\nNasmijala se na to, \u0161to nisam smatrao \u010dudnim jer navikao sam bio da me ljudi iz nerazumjevanja odbijaju ispraznim smijehom. Ali ona nije tada oti\u0161la, poput drugih, ve\u0107 sjela je pokraj mene i izvadila nov zastra\u0161uju\u0107e blistav no\u017e. Zjenice su mi se na njegovu iznena\u0111uju\u0107u pojavu ra\u0161irile i zurio sam. I tada je rekla da \u0107e mi ga podariti ukoliko mi njena skora pri\u010da bude dosadna i oti\u0107i \u0107e \u2013 zauvijek.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Pri\u010da ispri\u010dana, veoma poznano je zvu\u010dala. Svakida\u0161nja borba buntovne djevojke koja proturije\u010dila je svijetu. Nikako bez razloga, svakako sa poukom. Htjela vas je sve nau\u010diti, podariti vam dar shva\u0107anja i razumjevanja. I na kraju pri\u010de, svoje, rekla mi je:<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u201cNikako nisam uspijevala, i tako \u2013 zavoljela sam \u0161utjeti.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Kada \u0161uti\u0161 ljudi uvijek pretpostave najgore. Ne progovori\u0161 li ni rije\u010di u nekakvoj ovisni\u010dkoj grupi gdje ostali dijele svoja najstra\u0161nija iskustva, a redovito svoj lik daje\u0161 im na promatranje, njihovi umovi ne\u0107e \u010dekati ve\u0107 poput smionih grabe\u017eivaca \u0107e u svega nekoliko trenutaka prisjetiti se svojih lo\u0161ih i onih nekoliko ra\u0161trkanih dobrih odluka i pretpostaviti da <a class=\"read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/2014\/10\/05\/used-to-love\/\">&hellip;&nbsp;<span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[15,32],"class_list":["post-49","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-3","tag-15","tag-hrvatski"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=49"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=49"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=49"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=49"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}