{"id":683,"date":"2020-12-04T20:43:05","date_gmt":"2020-12-04T20:43:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/?p=683"},"modified":"2022-06-16T11:34:28","modified_gmt":"2022-06-16T11:34:28","slug":"popusio-sam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/2020\/12\/04\/popusio-sam\/","title":{"rendered":"Popu\u0161io sam"},"content":{"rendered":"<body>\n<p>Nemam ni\u0161ta od toga \u0161to su mi svi govorili. Bio sam sretan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A sada?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sada gledam te kako ulazi\u0161 u na\u0161 stan i vi\u0161e ne pogleda\u0161 gdje sam. Sada ne dobivam smije\u0161ak jer vi\u0161e nisi sretna \u0161to mi dolazi\u0161. Sada ga on dobiva. Sada on dobiva sve.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A ja?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ja sam po\u010deo opet pu\u0161iti cigare. Ti to ne zna\u0161 jer me vi\u0161e ne ljubi\u0161. Ja se \u010dak ni ne trudim to sakriti. Ti ne bi primjetila ni da ih pu\u0161im u kuhinji, a ne na balkonu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A mi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Mi smo postali rutina. Mi uskoro ni u ovome stanu ne\u0107emo postojati. Mi \u0107emo nestati. Mi smo bili mi, a sada ste tu vi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sada iskreno. Boli, svaki put boli. No vrijeme je da ti ode\u0161 uz rije\u010di da ve\u0107 neko vrijeme me ne voli\u0161. To \u0107e se dogoditi puno kasnije nego sam ja primjetio da svaki puta kada sla\u017ee\u0161 odje\u0107u to sve pa\u017eljivije radi\u0161. Svaki puta zastane\u0161 jer kroz glavu ti prolazi da ih pospremi\u0161 u torbe, a ne u ormar. Stvarno je ok, to \u0107u ti \u010dak i re\u0107i. Glupo \u0107e\u0161 me zagrliti i tek tada primjetiti da smrdim po cigarama. To \u0107e ti biti moj poklon. Jer ovaj prekid ja planiram puno du\u017ee od tebe. Tvoje prvo volim te sve je pokvarilo. Bilo nam je tako lijepo no ti si odlu\u010dila da me mo\u017ee\u0161 voljeti i dati mi ono \u0161to nikome do sada nisi. \u0160teta.<br>No ti odlazi\u0161 sa mojim poklonom. Tom misli da smrdim po cigarama \u0161to prije nikad nisam. Krajnja potvrda da ja sam taj koji te ne voli kao prije i da dobro je \u0161to odlazi\u0161.<br>Nema na \u010demu.<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Nemam ni\u0161ta od toga \u0161to su mi svi govorili. Bio sam sretan. A sada? Sada gledam te kako ulazi\u0161 u na\u0161 stan i vi\u0161e ne pogleda\u0161 gdje sam. Sada ne dobivam smije\u0161ak jer vi\u0161e nisi sretna \u0161to mi dolazi\u0161. Sada ga on dobiva. Sada on dobiva sve. A ja? Ja sam po\u010deo opet pu\u0161iti cigare. <a class=\"read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/2020\/12\/04\/popusio-sam\/\">&hellip;&nbsp;<span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[51],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-683","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-51"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/683","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=683"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/683\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":684,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/683\/revisions\/684"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=683"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=683"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/suicidevoluntary.aleks.lol\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=683"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}